Actually I dunno what to name the title.. hehehee.
Recently I asked a friend, do you think I am happier now? Then this friend responded by saying... well... I complain less. Hmm.. does complaining less an indication that I am happier :P It could mean that I am just keeping things to myself now. As I know complaining is futile hahahaha.
But once in awhile, have to let out the stim rito? If not, will go crazy....
So am I really happier? Occasionally, more often than not, I still have sleepless nite. Insomia. I wake up , almost evey hour. I have been trying to figure out whats actually worrying me that I can't seem to be able to let go and surrender.
Work wise, still sucks.. when u have a biatch for a boss. the more you do, the more she complains, people who does nothing, she doesn't hassle them, she basically leave them alone. Sometimes it makes me think that she dosn't deserve to be a super. Then again, is anyone deserving enough to be one? Sometimes it comes with seniority.. sometimes it comes with who you rub shoulders with, so you suck up so much over the years.. that when they move, you're stuck to sole of their shoes and they have no choice but lift you up when they walk forward :P hahahhaa. Get my drift ding ding dong dong...
Anyways, I have told myself no matter what she talks behind myback, I know deep down inside I am a person of integrity and of principle. I do whats right. I do not believe in getting "gaji buta". So whatever is given to me, I try to take positively and do my best. If she wants to bitch bitch loh.... I believe she is one element in my inability to sleep well. And worse of all, she is also a christian. So when i tell my mom about this, she always says, its not about the religion but the person..... Aiii..
Biatch..... i have live with it for now.. and pray that if I am nice enough, when I request for a change of role, I will get it.... *pray pray pray hard*
Anyways, recently I have been pretty stressed up.. the invasion of bugs is killing me. ok i looked carefully and its not white ants......coz its not lutsinar....Everyday , the first thing i dowhen i get home from work is vacuum the bloodeee wall and floor and the furniture.. YET when i wake up in the morn,, its there.. Sometimes within hours some new babies are back on the WALL.. WHAT THE F? is that all they do... reproduction within seconds??? CISSSSSSSSS
DETTOL....... please vanguish them!!!!!!
2 comments:
Monyet thanks for the congrats in your previous post.
Looks like you've got new flatmates eh? What are they? What is the Building Management gonna do about it? Geli loh!
Having sleepless nights could also mean happier. I mean, happiness should not be related to insomnia.
So, are you happier?
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